So I tend to obsess about things, everything. I don't really like to but I just do. I'm anxious. For so long I had been completely focused or obsessed - whatever about expanding our family. We started trying to have another kid when Porter was 10 months old, so May 2007, and by trying I mean starting infertility treatments. I know I don't ever really write about that on here, but in person I am very open about it and I wish I would have written about it. It ended in such a miracle and I just wish I would have documented all the ups and downs of how my babies came to be. Anyway now we have our TWO new littles and our family is complete.

Anyways that is not what this post is about...

Its about my NEW obsession - The Air Force -



Its been my new thing to think about lately. That and moving this summer (or getting Jason's (our) first assignment). I am so excited and nervous and OBSESSED with it, so is Jason really. We talk about where we might end up living and what its going to be like constantly.

Jason should be getting a list of about ten possible bases that need a pharmacist sometime in the next month or two (We have heard he should get it by the end of February) so we check his email about 400 times a day. We then will rank the bases where we want to live. Jason says its all up to me to rank them, I get to decide. He told me I could because I am always kindly reminding him of how supportive I am of him and all his crazy ideas, number one being the Air Force (and really lets be honest it is ultimately Uncle Sam that has the final say). Anyways we have also heard that we should get one of our top three picks. I want to be where it dosen't SNOW from October to MAY! I don't really mind the cold but I am so over the snow. I have never lived outside of UTAH, although I did live in St. George for 6 years and I so much prefer that weather!

Anyways its very exciting to think about a new adventure but I have SO many worries.

-Most of all how I am going to survive living away from my family with THREE kids? My family is a huge help and Porter is so close to my parents and grandparents (they are commonly referred to as "Team Ashlee").
-Is Porter going to adjust well? (I think so)
-Will Jason like his job? (I think so)
-Am I going to make new friends? This is sometimes not the easiest thing for me as even my mom has told me I come across as a bi*^h when I totally don't mean to (not that I ever mean to). You know if your own mom tells you that its pretty bad or your mom is mean :)
-What is military life really like? I don't personally know anyone in the military (crazy)! I have so many questions I want to ask someone and just see how they like it, maybe get some pointers. * I was told that you are supposed to tip the baggers at the on base grocery store. * Stuff like that. Also the on base grocery store has a name that I can not remember right now....
-It seems like the military is a language of acronyms! (So is mortgage lending, which I did for years, and there are hundreds of acronyms that inferts use too. I feel like my brain is FULL of them already!)
-How is this move going to work? I know the military sends people to pack up all our stuff and move it for us and that makes me nervous. I don't know how I will feel about people touching all my crap! (Probably better than boxing it up myself I'm guessing)...
-I am (ashamedly) not too up to date on politics and the war or really anything along those lines. I need to start reading about it, like now.

* I am aware that these are pretty petty things to be stressed out about as some air force wives are faced with dealing with much more serious concerns, God bless them. Its just where I am right now. *


I was talking to Jason about this the other night and I said I really didn't think it was going to be as hard as I was making it out to be in my head and he said, "Yeah, most things aren't." We had a good laugh about that because it is so true. I'm a prepare for the worst kind of girl.

There are a lot of positive things about this whole situation too (one being that my husband will for sure have a job). I really should start focusing about all the good things.


OR I should start obsessing about Chalene Johnson.




I started ChaLEAN Extreme yesterday and maybe since I am mentioning it now it will help keep me motivated. I am for sure NOT doing the diet, because.... I can't or I don't want to. I am going to try to eat better... Baby steps though. I do however want to start shedding this baby weight before we move!